Life can change quickly and unexpectedly. When that which is predictable is thrown into a state of confusion and chaos, it becomes a snafu (something normal a fouled up).
My “normal” was turned upside down when my husband suffered a stroke.
I was not prepared for this life-shattering turn of events. It should not have happened. We took care of ourselves by eating right, exercising, getting plenty of rest, and nourishing our spiritual selves. These things happened to other people - not us!
Driving home from the hospital after my husband was admitted, I cried out to God, “I can’t do this. I don’t know how.” Fear and uncertainty flooded my thoughts.
My new “normal” became watching what was a brilliant and well-adjusted man morph into someone who suddenly could not remember his address, social security number, or most anything said to him.
Then, he had two more minor strokes which compounded his issues and we found ourselves in unchartered waters as our lives completely changed - an so quickly. I was totally overwhelmed as my husband had been very competent and took care of many aspects of our daily lives.
The fear, pain, and loss I felt were indescribable. I felt the pressure of the circumstances as a weight upon my chest and a heaviness in my spirit. I was about to learn if my faith was strong enough for this battle.
Again, I cried out to God, “Why?”
I did not get the answer I was hoping for. Rather, I heard him say, “Trust me. Draw close to me and let me direct your path through this valley.”
This was not what I had expected or wanted in life. Facing this reality has been very hard. To watch someone whom you have shared so much with slowly fade from life keeps you in a continual grieving process.
Realizing I had no control, I knew I was going to have to walk out my faith and lean on God for everything.
If we learn to trust God, we can learn from each of our trials that he is faithful. We can learn to have peace and walk in his freedom. There will be challenges. However, we are not alone. God loves us and will not abandon us. He will direct our paths, help us to fight our battles, and strengthen us in our weaknesses.
Difficult as it is, I must daily remind myself that I will trust in God and that he will give me what I need. –D.L., Florida
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